of whom I am warranted in suspecting everything,
and of whom, in reality, I know nothing. And it
is this that draws me to him with a dizzy violence.
At least he is capable of many things in crime,
perhaps, and perhaps also in the direction of good.
I do not know. What does he want of me? What
â– will he do with me ? Should I be the unscrupulous
instrument of plans that I knew nothing of, the
plaything of his ferocious passions ? Does he even
love me ? And why does he love me ? For my
beauty; for my vices; for my intelligence; for my
hatred of prejudices, — he who makes parade of all
the prejudices ? I do not know. In addition to
this attraction which the unknown and mysterious
has for me, he exercises over me the bitter, power-
ful charm of force. And this charm, yes, this
charm acts more and more on my nerves, conquers
my passive and submissive flesh. It is something
which I cannot define exactly, something that takes
me wholly, by my mind and by my sex, revealing
in me instincts of which I was unaware, instincts
that slept within me without my knowledge, and
that no love, no thrill of voluptuousness had before
awakened. And I tremble from head to foot when
I remember the words of Joseph, saying to me :
" You are like me, Celestine. Oh! not in fea- tures, of course. But our two souls are alike • our two souls resemble each other."
Our two souls ! Is that possible ?